27 January 2014


"Snow was falling,

so much like stars
filling the dark trees
that one could easily imagine
its reason for being was nothing more
than prettiness.” 
:: Mary Oliver

Living in fur.
Mountaintops of snow
Lily alley of snow
Tomorrow marks Day #4 of CPS closed for Cold.
Winter has attacked Chicago with it's negative temps and snow.
But we're hanging on… 
With coffee, slippers, hats, snow walks, and lots of vitamin D.
With admiring the snow and choosing to see it as a gift of beauty
adorning buildings, lacing streets, covering cars… and forcing us all to slow down.
And slowly, possibly, eventually we will see spring.

{ photos taken on Diana mini film }

25 January 2014

Walking in the Woods

With the start of the New Year, I often find myself with refreshed commitment to clubs and societies to join; new curiosities awakened, searching to take root with others who share this pursuit of passion and purpose. I've joined book clubs and cooking classes, dance forms and yoga studios, I've sampled wine pairings and running groups (not in that order…), creative writing workshops, knitting classes, and spiritual meditation centers.

My official society letter & APOC patch :)
This year, I decided to join the society of APOC - American Pilgrims on the Camino - the Chicago chapter of others who have trekked across Spain on the Camino de Santiago. Admittedly, I've been on the email list for a few months, but had yet to meet up with these fellow pilgrims… not because of lack of time or busyness, but simply because there existed a slight bit of trepidation in sharing my journey with others. Would I connect with them? Would their experiences counter mine? Would it be a failed attempt to awaken the magic I left in Spain?

Walking boots exchanged for snow boots.
After receiving an email about a hike in the north woods of Chicago, I decided in -8 degree windchill the night before the walk to attend. I was reminded of the courage it took to show up that first day at El Spiritu albergue in St Jean pied de Port, France after following a stranger I met on a bus… the courage to stand in front of the Pyrenees on the horizon, knowing that once you start there's no going back… the courage to take the first step, say yes, and walk each day not knowing where I would sleep at night… Surely I could tap into that reserve of courage once again, and meet up with strangers once again, and walk once again...

My new Pilgrim friend, John.
My initial anxiousness was met with a hug from John, APOC walk organizer, as he asked questions about my life and how my Camino experience informs my day-to-day. Shortly following John's embrace, three others joined with varying accents, traditions, ages, and cultures. While my insecurities naturally rose to the surface, they were shortly drowned out with the breakdown of walls that so naturally occurs in Camino life. Throughout our days here in the city, we often insist upon raising barriers between us and others, yet the Camino reminds us that everyone is an equal. Each individual carries a mystery to be learned and a story to be heard. Even though I was the youngest of the APOC group by far, combined with the least amount of Caminos walked, their approach to me was nothing short of love and unconditional acceptance. Hearing the hushed conversations, spectrum of accents, and rhythm of the walk brought me straight back to the journey… the one that exists both there and here.

A few of us pilgrims and a fire in the woods.
Even as we stopped for our picnic lunch in the snow, I was reminded of the communal experience of eating together as each person passed around chocolate and Polish cake and a few swigs of whiskey. There we were, a few strangers an hour before, and yet friends sharing a meal out in the snowy woods. Initially united together by only one thing: the Camino… and later to find out the many other ways our stories intertwine. As you hear someone else's story, you also hear your own… and you realize the ways we each take part in the human experience together.

The path continues...
And the gentle reminder lingers, the path we walk does not end in Santiago. It continues here as lessons from the Camino are incorporated into interactions with others, meals shared, and stories exchanged… it continues with people we connect with as walls are broken down that try to divide. I was reminded of the journey in the simple steps we walk as we go one foot in front of the other…. the rhythm and simplicity of the woods and how inconsequential most details seem to become when removed from the normalcy of life. An escape and then a return… hoping they intertwine to give me a new perspective and refreshed heart that results in hospitality and love towards strangers who may even later become friends.

08 January 2014

Another Year, Another Party

When Ash and I were in the preliminary stages of discussing all things New Years… we happily concluded that even if it was just me, her, and a bottle of champagne on Dec 31st, it would be more than enough. After all, nobody else we knew was throwing a party and Wrigley bars demanding $100 cover charges were out of the question. It suddenly dawned on us that perhaps… just maybe… we could entertain the thought of another party… (even after vowing last NYE we could never again host a new years…. Gatsby cannot be topped!)

Mayhem before party: Sean setting up bar, Ash painting valences, bunny peeking in.
Lights hung, stripes on walls, feathers fanned
So after a quick brainstorm sesh, a Black & White new years theme evolved with visions of homemade wallpaper and invites and photobooth animals in motion. More than the decor and the excitement surrounding party planning, our party became official after considering what the new year is actually about. To celebrate the friends that have been by our side in 2013 and our community that has formed and to look forward to new friendships and adventures in 2014 is what a new year is all about.

Last year we were painting our black/white floor.
Same time this year, we throw a party in honor of our black/white floor. 
Bartender Sean shaking up his Urban Bourbons
Photobooth. Jenny came in town!!!!
Our third New Years in a row together and I wouldn't have it any other way.
At midnight we toasted and speech'ed and played and sang. We danced until the wee hours and rang in the new year with friends - old & new. Even though we woke up to a sticky after-party Lily with our purchased bunny hopping around old cans and misplaced bottles, we also felt so filled. To have such close friends in this giant city, to host over 75 people at our party and provide a space to celebrate and look to the future is a blessing I never want to take for granted.

I took photos in film all night.
Here's the dance party room & Auld Lang Syne at midnight via violin
My favorite party partner in crime
black and white everywhere.
I love celebrating a new year with my bro!
[ Our Facebook invite wording: ]

In the words of the great F. Scott Fitzgerald,
and the spirit of Gatsby:
"You can't repeat the past."

Which is why a New Year calls for a New Party.
Same rockin' beats, same dancin' feet
Same level of class, same floor to dance
[and of course, your same favorite hostesses]
But a whole new year is upon us…
with a party that is recent, yet classic,
a return to our roots, and yet relevant to now.
It's simple & complex, independent & mainstream,
it's modern words in print and movies from the past…

It's all concealed in your official New Years invite to be arriving at your doorstep when you post your address to the event!

Because what better way to ring in 2014 than with our very dearest friends, raising a cup of kindness, and toasting to a whole new year. 

Come one, come all,
and in the words of Ash & Rebes: "Prepare to party."

And… we may or may not have already been asked about the theme for next year… :)

04 January 2014

Good Year 2013

I'm always reminded of how filled this year has been when I review it in photos.
[as seen in 2010, 2011, and 2012]
Here's to 2013… A good year. 
A year of brokenness and beauty, a year of abroad adventures, races, mountains, and city risks, 
a year of new community - new church and new friendships - of celebrations and mourning, 
a year of leaving a job to pursue a graduate degree,
and most importantly: a year where God showed me His Hand in my life, 
His plans over mine, His suffering and His glory,
His goodness, faithfulness, and unconditional love...
and the freedom that only comes from life with Him.

Gatsby New Years at our apt. Gold wallpaper, a homemade bar, and photobooth fun :)
Ringing it in with these guys.
Sibs (+ Jillian) ski trip / playtime in Denver 
Spending my days with these dear Kinders...
Teaching alongside my assistant
Deciding to paint out floor… not realizing it would take 3 weeks.
and then, that day it was completed. 
Adventures with Ash… morning coffee, donuts, life.
New Years Resolution to Take Risks made it's first appearance in winter lake jumps.
Birthday adventures for Ash!
Californiaaaaa for Spring Break
Roadtrip to SLO
dreamy days with my Suzy
National Donut day!
Bridesmaiding in Captiva Island, FL
Jackie gets married!
True Life: We live in Wrigleyville
(actually it's Lakeview, but it feels like Wrigley sometimes…!)
Teachers go dancing
Spring adventures with Mikey!
My best friend bros
Family time
Backyard dinners at the Lily
Steph gets married! Celebrating with best friends Chicago community :)
The last weeks with Sonj before she moved to Seattle
The Blackhawks win the Stanley Cup!
And we celebrate with free drinks + bread at Little Goat
Milwaukee half marathon! Finished in 1:58!
Summer in a backpack
Mikey took me up my first 14'er: Bierstadt!
Nights in Wicker Park
Free Spirit photo shoot
These 2 good friends come to Chi!
Jenny celebrates the fourth in Chi!
2nd annual Americake!
Camino de Santiago: walking 790km across Spain for a month
Celebrating my 27th in Santiago de Compostela with my best Camino friends
Returning to Chicago… and Jessica back to the Lily! (before she left us again…)
morning hangouts with Bets
Backyard summer dinners
Chicago river with friends
Nights that end in Karaoke
Starting graduate school at Wheaton College
Ester + Matt get married!
Life in Chicago with my bro
Fall Junto dinners
Being a graduate student
Apple picking with our community of friends
Thursday night prayer group with the 10 best women I know
Celebrating Ashley getting into nursing school at Rush
Roadtrip to Dayton
a weekend with Jenny!
Puppy Sitting… an experience we might not try again.
Fall weekend in Waupaca with our best friends
cozy cabin mornings with such good people
Friends and Flannel
Fall adventures with Britt
Halloween with the Kennedys
Putting the fur to use as Margot from Royal Tenenbaums
Backyard pumpkin carving parties
Fireball Country karaoke for Todd's bday
Odds game bets & a November lake jump
School field trips
celebrating Nate's bday on the curb with pie
Chicago Public Library days
Being students in the lily!
We are fur owners
Mikey comes home! Adventures around our suburban 'hood
Christmas Tree times
Co-leading the Kids Experience at Soul City Church Christmas Store 2013
our winter Gala season
Mikey proposes in Denver! and Daniel and I surprise :)
Galavanting around the city in search of perfect Christmas gifts
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
Purchasing an animal for NYE photobooth…
and subsequently owning Louie for 3 days.

 
Black & White NYE at the Lily!

Ringing in 2014 with our best friends.
and a tribute to my Papa… In celebration of his life on earth, and new life in heaven.
He is the clearest and truest picture of the Father's love for me, and I am who I am because of my Papa.
He will be missed in 2014 - and years to come - but his legacy lives on through each member of our family.

Lately.